Saturday, December 24, 2011

过去、现在、未来，如果这些都能从头再来的话，

你说，该有多好。。。

如果，这世界上能拥有一个时空机，能把自己不喜欢的过去、现在跟未来从新的换一遍，

换去自己喜欢的，或者是一个至少不会让自己这么难过，痛苦的，
你说，该有多好？
曾经想过，如果有个时空机的话，

我要把所有不愉快的事全部都跟它删掉，让一切从来，
以前这么想过，如今，我的想法还是一样，从没变过。。。

不愉快的事情全都删掉，我是这么想的。

可是，现在的我却只想把自己所有的记忆都删除，让自己什么都不记得，

这样，或许。。。会比较好过一点。。。

我的记忆就像是密码一样，
我明明很想忘记，却怎么也忘不了，一直在我的脑海中浮现出我一直不想记起的回忆，

直到我不记得的时候，因为一些曾经看过的相同动作、听过的一样的对白，

那些不想记起的记忆就会因为这些而成了密码，开启了那些记忆

对别人而言，可能会说是我自己放不下过去，但我想说不是，真的不是！

当一些事情发生在自己身的时候，即使想忘也忘不了，

对别人而言，发生在我身上的事是每个人都会有的，

所以也没什么，但是，根本没人能了解我，

如果发生在自己身上而且就像笨蛋一样一直相信他们不会这样对你，然后选择继续相信他们，

整整六年时间，有谁能了解。。。

发现自己相信的人这样子，开始讨厌他们，讨厌这世界，不相信任何人的时候，

有谁能了解，你们都告诉我这是小事，可是

从一年级到六年级，我像笨蛋一样地相信他们，

我知道这是我自找的，可是，没人告诉我人是不能信的，
有谁能了解我的痛苦。。。
原来真的很累，

为了让他们不讨厌我，改变自己，得到的却只是一场空，
真的很累。。。
不想再改变了，不想再相信任何人了，
不想再跟任何人说话了，
反正人死的时候也是一个人默默的死去，
活着一个人也没差，反正到头来不是被利用、被出卖、被威胁、被人耍，
就是伤感情，烦都烦死了，累都累死了
突然，好讨厌人类、好讨厌光、讨厌群聚、讨厌跟人讲话，
甚至，讨厌自己。。。
讨厌自己的胆小怕事、没用、没勇气，

讨厌自己为什么来到这个世界上，给人麻烦，
如果没有我，或许大家都不会这么累了
好讨厌，这里所有的一切

好想从这里消失不见，不想再给人添麻烦了，

不想再想让他们那么累了。。。
真的很讨厌、很烦，很痛苦。。。
如果没有那些事情发生的话或许就不会这样了。。。

(pinqq)

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

我现在终于知道了人类为什么要有所谓的理想,
那是因为,人类一旦有了所谓的理想,就有活下来的理由,
而有了活下来的理由,就会推动力让人类继续前进,一直到人生的终点.
以前的我,并不了解为什么人要有理想,不对,应该说是我并不了解那句话里头真正的意思,我所了解的只不过是外表上的意思罢了.
很多人都会说这句话, "人生总是会起起落落,只要不放弃,坚持到底,很快就会过去了."
但,说这些话的人,他们又真的懂得这句话里头真正的意思吗?
或许他们并没有真正地理解,只是嘴巴随口说说罢了.
并不是每个人都这么勇敢,
就像玻璃,一旦破了,就会让人流血.即使血止住了,或许还会留下疤痕.
有些人就是想玻璃一样地弱,一旦受到伤害,就会留下疤痕,
然后一辈子都没办法让那难看的疤痕消失不见.
有人常说, "人类不是一生出来就那么勇敢的,勇敢是要靠自己去培养出来,
自己去寻找的."
但,说这些话的人,他们有懂得里头的真正意思吗?
如果真的遇到这种事时,说这些话的人们又会怎么做?
而你,又会怎么做?
(Pinqq)
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010


I watched this anime called "D gray man"

In this anime, i watched until a part which my favourite character

got injured because of a battle and he said that

"伤,只要还活着,总能痊愈,只是会留下疤痕..."

After hearing what he said, i think it was right...

Injury, as long as alive can always be cured, but will leave a scar

So, when i was depress, i will think of this...

Because...it had already become my special words of it...

Even though it is just an anime, but to me, the words that they said

may be true....

The special words of mine...will make me carry on my life...

I will use this special words to erase the sad memories and things..

And then...i will carry on with my life journey with these special words with

me....

The words that he had said...encouraged me...

I...will learn it from him...

Even though it was just an anime...Even it is fake...

In this anime, not just only battles,but it teaches me alot...

The favourite character that i like...he does not have his parents wif him..

Even the father which does not have any kinship with him

had also leave him in this world...

But, he was strong and brave...even he master leave him a lot of debts

for him to help him pay...

Even in the battle, he was strong and brave...Not scaring to die...

He said this before...that he had already lost the most important people

when someone ask him...

I was not as him...strong and brave...

Even his most important people had leave him...

I was not...

He never even escape from the truth...

Yet, i'm the one who was stuck in the past...

not wanting to come out...

not wanting to face the truth...

Now, everyone i like have leave me...

going to different places...

starting their new life...

Yet,i'm still stuck in the past...

I don't even want to face it...

Coz...everyone have left me...I'm alone now...

Now, i was in the place which dunhave any friends,

and...a total strange place...It was not yet in the darkness...

But i force myself to drop it inside...

Because, only like that...i will not feel sad and lonely anymore...

i will not get hurt also...In the place which I'm in now...

I...wanted to come out...

But i...cant...

i...i...dunwan to express my sadness and loneliness out...

i dunwan them to pity me...

I try very hard...i wanted to lend someone shoulder...

to cry...

I'm not even strong and brave...

The special words of mine...

will not leave me alone...

Because...it my only friend...

This special words and music...

my only partners...

will not leave me alone...forever...

I believe...
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010

New blogskin

Changed new blogskin...
Hope you all like it....
Long time never post le....
When i post, it was the time where everyone have been seperated
to different places le....
In the place when i am now, is just a strange place to me
even it already past 6weeks like that...
in this few weeks, everyone should already have friend le...
Grat to all who have already have their friends in the new skool..
Everyone have except for me....
It so weird....
but...well...if i dunhav frends in new skool,
i still got frend primary skool want right?
but it weird right?
such a weird gurl.....
no one will miss primary skool friends de...
all hope to quickly go to new skool..
but...i...dun....wish
well, ps for talking rubbish to u all...
i actually want say de is that i have changed
my blogskin hope u all like it...that all...
dunnid to see all the rubbish that i write ....
=]
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Hot day!

Hot Day!
Lol! Today dunnoe what happen, damn hot!!!!
Not even like that few days, so cooling...
Now hot like burning my skin!
So Hot!!!!!!
Wah! The weather really playing wif me sia!
Suddenly cool suddenly hot!!
OMG!! SO HOT!!!!
Weather ar weather, dun play wif me lerh...
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Monday, November 23, 2009

Skool Holidays

假期愉快
Yeah！终于放假了！
等了好久才放假喔！
可是,变得好无聊喔！都没东西做！
不过,我很喜欢现在的天气！
很凉！
有时侯,我在想,虽然凉,但是却没下雪...
我也在想, 新家坡虽然没下雪但却下雨...
该不会天气用雨来代替雪啊？
很无聊对吧？
这是我的想法啦。。。不过,还满无聊的。
不过, 无聊归无聊,放假归放假，
不想破坏大家美丽的假期。
我就在这里祝大家：“假期愉快！”
再见！
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Monday, November 16, 2009

One thing i forgot to say!

One thing i forgot to say
There is one thing i almost forgot to say.
I went to my sis blog, her blog very nice sia...
i ask her where she find it want.
She said that she make it herself.
Pro sia!
I hope she can help me do wors....
Oh yah! ps today coz i really got nth to write only suddenly remember
this and so i wanted to say it out!
Maybe i will be posting new post and a longer post soon!=)
(pinqq)
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